The computer is an interesting machine. It runs as it is programmed, unless it becomes infected with a virus or malware. Malware is short for malicious software, which is computer code used to disrupt normal operation. I have Norton installed on my desktop, which tries to protect me from these attacks.
But every so often one gets through.
When it does, nothing works right. Sometimes the processor slows down, sometimes the screen goes blank. It is a terrible feeling to possibly lose all those pictures, documents, and memories. I recently had to call the help desk for something like this, and Norton was great. But they don’t go in and attempt to rewrite the code in the malware. They identify it and remove it, so the basic programming can run correctly again.
I realized as I was running the other day, that we do this wrong. Our minds are programmed properly, but then we download some bad code.
I’ll never be good enough.
I’m not accepted.
I’m too far gone.
I don’t matter.
I’m too fat.
I’m not beautiful.
Just because some malware is running, doesn’t mean the whole system is damaged. We need to take some steps, like they do at the help desk, to resume right thinking.
Step 1. Identify the bad code.
We have to find the lie. This can be difficult because the lies are sneaky, and have been around a long time. They are programmed to find justifications for being there. I’ll never be good enough because my parent said so. I’ll never be good enough because look what unforgivable thing I did. I’ll never be good enough because he/she didn’t love me or stay with me. I’ll never be good enough because look at my weight.
Step 2. Remove the bad code.
I am convinced that we waste too much time trying to rewrite the code. It’s malware. It is junk. Don’t try to fix it. I was never able to change my self talk, because it was just a reflection of the thoughts that were running. The thoughts were wrong. The code was bad. It needed to be removed. One powerful download of antivirus software, and that code is gone. Gone. I don’t try to change I’m not good enough to I am good enough. I expose and remove the lie.
Step 3. Resume running the original code.
We were created perfectly, to reflect the unconditional love that is within us. That authentic code, those loving thoughts, are always there. They cannot be removed or rewritten. Once we have removed the bad code, all that is left is the real human being underneath. The real, open-hearted, authentic human being free of all self hatred, judgment and fear. The truth. I am good enough, is the original programming. We don’t need to create it, it has been written for us and in us. We just need to be free of the lies so the truth can run like it is intended.
I was stuck in a pit of self hatred for a long time. Many years. I hid it, but that code ran my mind and my life.
Too far gone.
Never good enough.
I didn’t realize the lies were just bad code, and I was the one who kept clicking on them so they would run. The writers of the code were long gone. It was me who looked at that suspicious email and clicked the link anyway, time and time again, despite the warnings.
I didn’t have to rewrite my thoughts. I didn’t have to rewrite my self talk. I tried, and it never worked. The bad code had to be removed. The anti-virus software that does that is Truth. That’s it! All it takes is knowing who you are, knowing who you were created to be, and downloading the Truth file over and over.
And every now and then, when I click a link and a bad one gets through, I just call the help desk.