Part of me didn't even care. It was the holidays after all. And I wasn't particularly happy or loving my life. I might as well get a little pleasure where I can. And that meant chips, dips, cookies, pie, gravy, cream sauce, bread, bread, bread, cake (aka sweet bread), booze, wine, wine, wine...
To make matters more challenging, December has the shortest days. I am pretty sure the sun set today at 2:00 pm. It's been dark almost all day! It's tempting to eat dinner several times, with a nap in between.
I want to do a little meditation together. Close your eyes. (OK, that won't work, maybe you can have someone read this part to you. Otherwise, imagine with me.) It isn't December 5th, it's January 5th. Take a deeeeeeeeep breath. The holidays are over and they were wonderful. The decorations are put away and the house is super clean. There is a little snow on the ground, and the sun is shining across a sparkling blue sky.
Now, deeeeeeeeep breath. Scenario one. You felt overwhelmed and out of control the entire month of December, and you ate like it. No planning, No purpose. You abandoned food prep and ate on the go. You threw open the flood gates at every party you went to. You deserve a break, after all! Now, how does your body feel? Do you remember this feeling from previous years? Are your pants tight? Is it hard to breathe, climb steps, sleep well?
Now, deeeeeeeeep breath. Scenario two. You felt overwhelmed at the beginning of December, so you put some strategies in place to help. First and foremost, food prep. You kept lots of healthy foods on hand so you could eat on the go and still feel great. You ate a big salad before your parties, and stayed connected to your authenticity while you munched. You took time to de-stress in healthy ways. Now, how does your body feel? Have you ever felt this healthy and free on January 5th? Do your clothes feel good? Do you feel fit and strong? Are you ready to conquer the year?
Take your pick. You are fully empowered to choose either outcome. I know which one I want. I literally hate that feeling of scenario one. Been there, done that. I'm not going back. I know I will not eat "perfectly" this month. That's not even realistic for me. But, I will not lose control. I will not throw open the flood gates and leave it all to my future self to deal with. She has big plans! She has things to do.
I do not want to saddle her with feeling like crap about herself, because I didn't take time for my daily practices.
So, today, I will meditate and pray. I will shop and prep healthy food and guzzle water. I will schedule my workouts and get my walks in. I will take care of myself and say no when I need to. I will process my stress and get help if I need it. I will make time for yoga, acupuncture, massage, my art, knitting, walking at Highbanks, volunteering. All the things that keep me rooted in my very best self. Because that person knows how to make good choices. That person knows my future self is waiting to meet up with me on January 5th, and I don't want to hear, "How could you do this to me. AGAIN?"
I want to hear, "Way to go! High five and happy dance, December self! You rock."