As she was getting me caught up with how her move went, she started describing her drive out of Ohio to a new state. It was New Year's Day and as she reached the mighty Mississippi River, she thought to herself, "What the hell am I doing?" Nothing is wrong, I have a good job, nice house, great relationships. What. Am. I. Doing?
Have you ever felt this way? I have, many times. First time I took Body Pump class. First time I worked out with my trainer. First time I hiked out west. First time I set foot on the Grand Canyon trail. The moment we started construction on the Tread studio. The day I left my corporate job to be a trainer.
In all these examples, I was stepping out of my safe, comfortable spot, where nothing was really wrong but I wasn't growing. I wasn't being challenged. And I was willingly stepping into growth and challenge. It's a brave, audacious thing to do. And it's very scary.
I have found in every instance, when I was courageous enough to walk through the fear and do it anyway, I was gifted with something really great on the other side. But not only that, when I walk through the fear, I gain confidence in my ability to press through, to keep going, left foot right foot.
So I relate to this brave but slightly freaked out 57 year old woman sitting in her car, staring down the mighty Mississippi and the changes that await her on the other side. I have been there. But oh, you should have seen the light in her eyes! They were dancing with joy and triumph, newness and confidence, because she did cross the Mississippi, and things were going great.
If you feel the tug at your heart to be challenged, to make a change, to light up from the inside out, but you also feel like you are staring at the mighty Mississippi, cross it! Cross it! The fears are mostly smoke and mirrors. In fitness, I know how scary it seems. We all do. But the dance of joy and triumph awaits you as you call on your courage and finally cross it. And it is worth every step.