What does that mean? For me, it not only means I was afraid all the time, but it also means that all my decisions were ruled by fear.
I was afraid of not having enough money.
I was afraid of being alone forever.
I was afraid of being disapproved of and rejected.
I was afraid of being uncomfortable.
I was afraid of failing.
I was afraid of taking responsibility for my life.
I was afraid of losing someone else.
I was afraid of never being good enough.
These fears ruled my life. And I mean down to the smallest everyday decisions, including choices related to my health and fitness.
Lie: I make great decisions when I’m rooted in fear.
Truth: Decisions rooted in fear lack peace.
Whether it was a decision to go walk, or what to eat for dinner, how long to stay at work, or what event to attend, I was rarely making choices from anything other than fear.
What will earn me another hit of approval so I feel like I’m worth something today?
What will comfort me from all this emotional pain and stress and loneliness?
What will keep me protected and safe inside my mask and wall?
What is the short term gratification choice?
The consequences of fear-based decision making?
Anxiety, depression, self-doubt, confusion, sleeplessness, illness, hopelessness and sadness.
If this speaks to you, there is something you can do to change this radically. You can bring all your decisions under the rule and reign of Love instead.
Spirit, God, Creator, Love.
Lie: I can’t heal my fear.
Truth: Love can!
What does this look like? Now, when I am making a decision to go walk, or what to eat for dinner, how long to stay at work, or what event to attend, I can bring it under the rule and reign of Love.
Is this choice loving to myself?
Is this choice loving to others?
Does it reflect healthy boundaries?
Is it rooted in the belief that I matter, am already good enough and am deeply loved?
Does this choice honor my health and my life?
The consequences of love-based decision making?
Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness.
Also known as fruits of the Spirit.
I know what it is like to be lost and in the dark. I really do. But I also know that I was the one who had fear in a place of such power in my life. Listen, fear came to me when I was young, and I do not hold my young self accountable for that. In fact, I understand completely why I was so broken and scared, and there is infinite grace for that. But when I became an adult, I chose fear. I allowed my life to be under the rule and reign of fear. I made a decision to stay rooted in fear.
And I know that sounds like a bad thing, but it’s not. In fact, it is the best thing because if I chose fear, it means I am empowered to choose differently. And now that I know the Truth, I choose Love. I choose the fruits of the Spirit. I choose to bring all my choices under the rule and reign of Love.
All it takes is to invite the Spirit of Love to come. Ask for help when you are choosing. Ask, is this choice rooted in the belief that I matter, am already good enough and am deeply loved? Does this choice honor my health and my life? Then go for your walk, lift weights, drink your water, eat your veggies and watch as you experience peace like you’ve never known which exceeds anything you or I can understand.